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True Love Always (Remastered)

by Drowning Room

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1.
I've counted days on end Alone and so afraid With no one to share my greatest days In misery I've waded Only holding me Always wondering what true love is I wish I could go back to the first day When I held you in my arms and first learned your name I would do anything to carry you again All I want is to feel your skin In embrace against mine As the sweat keeps us warm I'll gaze into your glowing green eyes And cradle myself in your arms My soul was yours to hold As fragile as it is The worst thing you could do is to let go And let me descend Salvation lingers in your fingers And on your lips I die inside without your kiss Haunted by demons who without reason refuse to let go And if you loved me then why did you? How ironic that the one who brought a smile to my face Should be the one who takes it away Damn you so called "lover" You swore you would never leave me A promise broken I trusted And my sick heart still loves you to this day
2.
6 am daylight bleeds through the night And my bloodshot eyes curse its sight Another 24 years till I sleep again Another 24 lifetimes till I find some rest A day of maladies and formalities As I smile for a while just to please But if I could die and trade a tear from my eyes My warped mind would finally be at ease Daily pleasures seem more like treasures And I succumb to cheap thrills that just kill I stand cruciform as I'm beat by the storm I wonder what tomorrow will bring I sift through the ruins To find Sunday's best When God shined fortune on everyone's head I overslept
3.
You were supposed to protect me Your love was to be without end But mother I'm alone now Where do I turn? How could I have known, all along You'd be the one to bring me down? An afterbirth of no real worth How dare you call me "son?" I called you "mother" While you shoved your religion and hopes Down my constricting throat You raped my innocence With your aspirations And when I failed you I was shunned I am not your son I was not born to bear your scorn If you could see I'm so much more But if you can not see it, well then so be it I never asked to be born Conceived Then ripped from the womb A killing seed was planted See how much I've grown
4.
The Moment 02:30
Blast furnace words meant to kill Thrust from our lips As we choke on formed habits of spite Reconciliation slips Stripped away By every killing word we spoke Ripped away Your love for me with every stroke Killing me With every tear I shed in vane The memories Change not a thing because you still feel the same We stand at odds When it's love that brought us here Wounds run too deep to mend And hate is what keeps us here So the lies proved themselves true As we turn away from this rose thorn year We both know it's through
5.
Monstrosity 03:54
The slipknot tightens Choking the life out of me Eyes open to see you watching Something that I refuse to believe I'm sinking deeper in pain To the point where I've given up hope I will reach out to you But it only tightens the rope Blood drips from my finger tips As I'm still bleeding from our last kiss Below the surface a monster waits To be unleashed by my hate Years of tears gone dry Not the last that I'll ever shed Can you sit there and ask why Love will not rear its head? I've not changed but become myself And this might not please your eyes But I've failed and been nailed You're part of this, do you dare deny? Blood drips from my finger tips As I'm still bleeding from our last kiss Below the surface a monster waits To be unleashed by my hate Now my blood is dry An open wound as the sweat goes deep I lived a life once full of love But that love has brought this change in me If I die here I'll blame you And those who caused my pain Be it blood, friend, foe Know this monster has my name
6.
Suffer through words spoken That bleed through hero's lips Choke on beliefs long dead Fallen heroes' graves unearthed To reveal dried remains Of those we once praised A standard that moves in reverse A stalls right before our eyes Champion martyr words defiled "Until death" never realized I will bend to this trend And upset the sleeping deity My crusted eyes wiped clean by lies I now see so clearly The words they said mean nothing Their scriptures falsified Our discontent for words they said Brings us a new hero's demise
7.
Beautiful one so alone Wondering, wandering, aimless Trying to carve a niche for yourself But what you've done carves you lifeless Display of shame for all to see As you bare yourself for them A friendly face never earns first place You'll soon be forgotten Bludgeon your emotions With their mallet of judgment Divinity Syndrome A stain sets in that can't be bleached As you deflect their stares You're numb to harmful, watching eyes As you parade compared Sharp tongue dismissal of discouragement Spread your angel wings To ascend to new heights of Superficial dreams And when you take the stage once more The lights reveal what you've become Your altered face no longer beautiful The dreams of life you've woken from You can never go back and do it all again The gowns, the sashes and crowns mean not a thing The flowers have died just as you have inside Beauty queen, no longer seen as divine
8.
Desperate 02:43
I won't punish myself for you again I won't bleed for you You will wish you hadn't given up You will bleed I'm so afraid of what I might do Not to myself but to you You will lose your grip on me And I will make you see I will squeeze the life from your heart I will feel your cold flesh You will forever stare that death blank stare You will feel... My love turned hatred I don't want to hate you, but I'd love to So that you never see me cry again I don't want to hurt you, but I have to So that you never see me cry I can't stand to see you smile Meanwhile I play with thoughts so vile I will do my worst to take that smile from you I'm so afraid of what I might do
9.
Gravel 03:30
The weight of guilt Thrust upon my shoulders I never thought that it would grip me And now I'm being crushed I am what I thought I was So far above Now I find myself eye to eye With those I once spat upon Forgiveness would only mean permission To walk the side of love I once felt for myself Now I am stripped bare And standing exposed to any blow you can throw The shame I feel Saying words I know I mean A moment of weakness breaks the bough And I fall to the ground I still feel as though it was meant to be For you and me But with something like this I can't help but turn away My reflection once made me smile That smile is gone and I'm trying so hard To shed a tear. Have I become calloused Knowing what pain I hope I've put you through? When all is said and done I feel so much more betrayed Walked away with my head low Because I lied to my face I will never lie to myself again How can I expect everything to be fine? When I'm still trying to pick myself up off the ground And I know all too well I could have declined!

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Remaster of our full-length release, "True Love Always" originally released in spring, 1997.

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released April 17, 2017

Shane Chikeles - Drums
Karl Krebs - Guitar
Sean Mesler - Vocals
Greg Nazak - Bass

Recorded at Sanctuary Studios, winter 1996-1997. Remastering by Shane Chikeles.

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